I have been thinking and asking myself could it be that sometimes we confuse anxiety for our intuition or our inner knowing telling us we’re going against our hearts desire? Could we look at anxiety in a positive way, as a message from inside?
In my opinion there is quite a difference between having symptoms of anxiety and having an anxiety disorder; an anxiety disorder can be mild or severe, in general it has a negative effect on a persons capacity to function normally.
Often when we talk about anxiety we look at it in a negative way. Mid way through 2012, there was a time when I didn’t realize I had an anxiety disorder. It wasn’t until my short term memory seem to disappear, I couldn’t focus on anything or comprehend and process simple things, I started to feel like I was intellectually impaired at times, struggled a little socially to think of things to say and I was always tired and stressed, life was a blur, I was on autopilot.
When we are not making decisions based on what we want, doing things we don’t want to do, we go against our will for others and have a need for their validation. Maybe we’re hiding things because we’re not being honest and true to others, or we don’t believe in ourselves enough, we’re insecure and fearful or sometimes
it’s spending time with another person whether it be a friend, lover, colleague or family member who has a negative effect on your way of being. It could be doing a job or studying something we don’t love or we’re not passionate about. These are all examples of situations where we could start feeling symptoms of anxiety, when we give up our power and freedom, the anxiety is almost like a message saying “STOP and listen to me”.
When we ignore these messages (symptoms/ feelings) for way too long is that when it turns into an anxiety disorder? Robbing us from living in the present moment.
Next time you have anxiety really stop everything you’re doing, take some deep breaths, close your eyes and listen, I truly believe we always have the answer inside of us, we often just choose to ignore it because that’s the easier option.
Maybe we’re caught up in situations in life where we cant always make decisions to follow our heart straight away, maybe we are already suffering from an anxiety disorder. Wherever you are on your journey we must listen to the messages and be committed to achieving, learning, growing and discovering our hearts true desire and taking steps to achieve it, this is where the magic happens.
“Nothing ever goes away until it has taught us what we need to know.” ~Pema Chodron
Call it anxiety, call it intuition, I still don’t know, but what I do know, is that each time it comes back up, I stop and I listen.
I now see anxiety as a positive in my life, I’m grateful for my anxiety, it led to the decision of giving up my corporate career in banking and insurance of 11 years, and pursuing a career as a Yoga Teacher and Health Coach, its been an amazing transformation and ironically I owe my inner peace to my anxiety.
*This article was written 23 September 2014